The Crucifixion
Poet: Sabrina Campbell
Greenville County Detention Center
I used to live in darkness, but now I walk in light
I’ve done a lot of wrong that I’m trying to make right.
The things I done when I was blind I regret now that I can see.
But I accepted Jesus, and He has set me free.
Ya see He died on the cross so that you and I can live.
We were washed clean, clean of all our sins.
So I’m opening up my eyes and opening up my heart.
I live with the Holy Spirit. I was loved from the start.
Now I’m a child of God and walk in His trail.
Jesus is my personal Savior and cast the devil to hell.
So… no more addictions, sorrows, or shame.
He fulfilled my heart and removed all my blame.
This is just the beginning of my amazing story.
I will praise God and give Him all the glory.
Here I sit again in this scary, cold, and lonely room
that has now become so familiar to me.
As the door slams shut all I could think about was
things I didn’t do while I was still free.
I feel like a worthless bum realizing that I’ve once again left my children
in care of someone else, yeah it’s been awhile but this time I leave two.
It’s gotta be the worst pain I ever felt,
with no way out, no way around it,
I had no choice but to see this through.
Alone in this room, I yearned for hope, and to whom I would turn,
I already knew.
When all I could do was fall on my knees, that’s exactly what I did.
God, I’m inside this jar, dying for air, unaware of my prints on the lid.
This place has become a revolving door for me; you would think I thought it was fun.
But it’s not dear Lord, and I need You now; to myself, just what have I done?
God, I can’t understand how time after time You remain so faithful.
When I need You, I need You, when I want You, I want You,
then back to my ways so playful.
This voice in my head keeps saying to me, “What makes this time any different?”
Get behind me Satan, for God can do anything, and of all His power I am in remembrance.
When all I could do was trust in You, I put my life in Your hands.
I give it to You, now take it from me, before I too ruin this chance.
I know there’s more to life than being in jail and standing before a judge.
A beautiful life, abundant and pure, so clean with not even a smudge.
I want much more than I have had and my kids deserve it too.
Only You can start my life anew, Dear Lord, I look to You.
I pray not for material things or for selfish reasons at all,
just hold me close, and guide me Lord, and catch me when I fall.
When all I could do was surrender to You; that’s exactly what I did.
You reached down from heaven,
Unscrewed the lid, then in the palm of Your hand I hid.
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POET: PATRICIA LITTLEJOHN
Am I true to myself?
I have to live with myself and so..
I want to be fit for myself to know…
I want to be able as days go by always to look myself straight in the eye.
I don’t want to stand with the setting sun and hate myself for the things I’ve done.
I don’t want to keep on a closet shelf a lot of secrets about myself.
and fool myself as I come and go into thinking that nobody else will know
what kind of woman I really am. I don’t want to dress up myself in sham.
i want to go out with my head erect, I want to deserve all men’s respect.
But here in the struggle for fame and self, I want to be able to like myself.
I don’t want to look at myself and know that i’m bluster and bluff and empty show.
I can never hide myself from me. I see what others may never see..
I know what others may never know.
I can never fool myself and so…
So whatever happens, I want to be,
SELF RESPECTING AND CONSCIOUS FREE.